Hey again, canadianchik! Thank you for going into some more details about your situation. I feel like I could understand you a bit better.
It sucks when you can’t really connect with your parents. It’s a bit funny, but it really doesn’t matter how old we are, we always seek validation from parents. The good news is that this relationship can also change, but I do acknowledge it’s not easy. We are so caught up in our parent-child roles and there is a lot of history to overcome.
As for your ex, I get that you finally found someone nice in him after all those years of heartbreak. Now, breaking up with him hurts so much more because of this. I am really sorry to hear this, I am! I also noticed that despite you saying you made a mistake, you also mentioned you are still friends. To me that proves your mistake was not as grave after all, even if it caused your break up.
In both of these situation, I would just like to encourage you to accept your emotions as they are. You might be jealous of your siblings. You might be scared of your dad. You might miss your ex. You might be possessive of him. To all of this I say: so what! These are your feelings, your reactions to what is happening to you. Knowing that time will heal or that you have “high functioning” depression does not change your experience one bit. So, own it. For now, this is how you feel and that’s alright as well. ❤️🩹
Hey benignintervention! Just wanted to say I really liked your view of things. I am so glad things turned out for the better for you. I am sure you still have your ups and downs, as we all!, but it is so encouraging to read what helped you and what did not. Even though this reply was addressed to someone else, it really brightened my evening to read how you handled things - for better or for worse. Thank you so much!